Wednesday, April 16, 2008 @4:41 AM
When you feel like you are going to die or you want to die, it's always better to have someone to tell that you are dying or that you want to die. Well, not that but the reason why you're dying or why you want to die. It's just really nice to have someone whom you can constantly talk to about anything and would care about what you will say, would worry about you and would do anything to cheer you up, and would give you reasons to live. But then again, if you already have the idea of that someone you'd want to be like that to you, even if there's a thousand of that around you they just don't fit the bill. You still don't feel comforted, you're still looking, you're still unfocused, you're still wandering, you're still suspended in that agony of waiting to die. ha! my first attempt on writing creatively. So, I might blog more this time. I think it's still good that SOM mixed up my Eco class and I ended up taking Creative Writing with Sir Glenn Mas this summer. It's a dream come true for me to write a play, and now I will be obliged to write because that's our final paper. Another unfortunate thing that had some use in the end, is my dad's confiscating my phone, I got used to not having a phone. Just three days after I got my phone back, it got stolen (see here that I used the word stolen because I tried to retrieve it but the trike driver outsmarted me) and I spent a big deal looking for the trike and the trike driver. I NEED MY PHONE BACK! Gawd. I don't know if my parents will replace it. I want my phone back, it was my first big purchase. I want it back!!! Other things I want back: My DVDs!!!! (specially: Girl Interrupted, Peter Pan, Hook, Crazy/Beautiful) My books (specially my classics: Emma, The Picture of Dorian Gray, Peter Pan, Unbearable Lightness of a Being, my film book!!!) My low cut chucks!!!! All my low cuts are with you! My red dress and other shorts! Please, I want them back. I want my things back. I need what I want back. I may be confused and unfocused, but it does not affect my judgement on things that I want.