every beat of my heart

Saturday, March 22, 2008 @7:13 PM

How will you choose your Mr Right?

You will make the most of being able to shop around for Mr Right. You love your freedom and will have a lot of fun learning about what sort of man you like. When you do find the guy for you, nobody will be able to keep you away from the church.

Who will be your future Mr Right?

Your real-life hero will be manly. He'll be dependable, even financially. He will protect you and always respect your feelings. He'll probably be quite a bit older than you.

When will you get married?

You will be very determined and thorough in choosing a spouse. You'll study every detail about your man before saying yes to a life of love. You will eventually make a good choice, but you'd better be sure that he's willing to wait that long.

What sort of wife will you be?

You are a bit tricky. You might pretend to be a sensitive and caring wife in his eyes, but you'll be ready to laugh at him behind his back and eventually you may even leave him for another man.

Will you and your husband have a good time together?

You and your spouse will choose to spend time on more romantic activities. You won't end up quite as healthy, but you'll have plenty of fun going out for drinks, watching concerts or playing cards at home with other friends.

What will your children be like?

Your kids will be very naughty. They will often get into trouble but you will have a great time bringing these fun-loving kids up. They are lively and smart.

How loyal are you?

You get along very well with most guys. Sometimes your friendliness misleads others to think that you're a bit of a flirt, but actually you've got a loyal heart. You'll never have eyes for anyone except your beloved husband.

@6:29 PM

Here is the analysis:

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

@6:25 PM

Here is the analysis:

You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.
You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.
Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

@5:45 PM

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

@5:42 PM

Got the quiz from Janica's site.

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Thursday, March 20, 2008 @7:45 AM

Can you answer these questions about the first person that comes into your mind?

Don’t change the person.

How old is the person?
~ 20

Is this person older than you?
~ yes

Have you ever kissed this person?
~ yes

Are you really close to him/her?
~ not anymore

How many times do you talk to this
person in a week?
~ nil

Do you think he/she will repost this?
~no

Could you live with this person?
~ yes.

Why did you choose this person?
~ because he was the first person I remembered when this song played on my itunes.

How long have you known this person??
~ four? five? years

Have you ever been to the mall with this person?
~ yes

Have you ever had a sleepover with this person?
~ no

If you ever moved away would you miss this person?
~ no

Have you ever done something really stupid or illegal with this person?
~ yes

Do you know everything about this person?
~ no

Would you date this person’s siblings?
~ no

Have you ever made something with this person?
~ no

Have you ever worn this person’s clothes?
~ no

Have you and your person made up a hand shake?
~ no

If it was “freaky friday” would you switch bodies with this person?
~ yes

Have you ever heard this person sing?
~ yes. it was an embarrassment!

Do you and this person have a saying?
~ i think so, but i forgot.

Do you know this persons myspace password?
~ no

Have you and this person ever gotten into a fight or argument?
~ yes

Have you and this person gone clubbing?
~ no

Do you know how to make this person feel happy?
~ used to

Do you and this person talk a lot?
~ used to

Do you like this person?
~ used to

Have you and this person got into a fight?
~ yes

Do you want to go out with this person??
~ no

Do you want to be friends with them forever?
~ yes

@6:26 AM

One thing I missed most is driving in NLEX. I love NLEX. The tree-lined roads and the vast plains and the cool breeze that slaps on your face.

I just love it! I missed driving with my cousins and uncles and aunt in NLEX, that's what we did awhile ago. My uncle craved for food and then Vic, tito Bon, tita Krick, Gabo and I went to NLEX to get something to eat. I just missed it. Good music, good vibes, and good company. Not so much of good food, well, KFC and Chowking, could be considered good fastfood.

I'm soooo glad I'm home.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008 @8:02 PM

yes, I am almost to tears but since I am not in the privacy of our flat, I can't cry. Oh, I don't cry.

Anxiety, anxiety, anxiety.

This week, I didn't want to go home. I know, it's ironic that for the past months I've been dying to go home. But due to recent events(I know right? Events. Parang something big kahit hindi naman, at wala naman talaga) I suddenly didn't want to go home.

But, the only way to fix it is to go home and actually face it and deal with it. It's so typical of me to run away, but this time I'm planning to run away even without being in close proximity. Yes, I am totally avoiding it. It will be one big... I don't know.

Shet, eto nanaman ako. Anticipating. nakakaloka! Hindi dapat isipin. Pero, what can I do? Wala naman akong ginagawa, kaya no choice. Palagi nalang naiisip. Leche talaga. tapos ngayon, sheeet. this is bad. Way bad.

Akala ko nung una, okay lang. But then, ............

..........................

anxiety lang siguro to. I'm nervous about flying alone.

@6:08 PM

To prove Janica wrong, I'm answering this! so obviously galing to kay Janica

DURING YOUR HIGHSCHOOL LIFE...
Lagyan ng 'x' sa gitna ng [ ] kapag ito
ay naaangkop sa iyo!

1.[x] Nagcutting ka na? -naaalala ko pa yung first time ko, with Kai 3rd year, first subject: chem nagtago kami sa fire escape:))

2.[x ] Ginagawang
basketball/volleyball/
kahit anong sports ang klasroom niyo. -yup. nagpapatintero kami, pusoy dos, at marco polo at umaakyat kami sa ibabaw ng locker at sumasabit sa bintana

3.[x] Palabas-labas ka ng room kapag
nababagot -yuzz! cr! :D--kasama ko si janica:)) at dun lang hanggang lumabas yung teacher

4.[x] Sumisigaw ka at ginagawang
playground ang room kapag walang
teacher. -kahit may teacher, kebs. haha :))--true, well sa isang teacher lang

5.[x] Hindi ka nakikinig sa mga
sermon ng
mga guro at madalas ay nakikipag
sign language ka pa sa classmate
mo. -and doodle with kamille :))--true

6.[x] Nangongopya ka o *nagpapakopya ka
kahit short quiz lamang. -i have an infamous math experience :)) isa ko sa mga negtest sa covered court:))

7.[x] Nahuli ka
na pero hindi ka pa
rin tumitigil sa pangongopya. -read number 6 :))-- oh yes.

8.[x] Tinataasan mo ng boses ang iyong
titser. -isang beses lang nung first year at dahil dun na guidance ako pero hindi tungkol sa incident yung topic ng teacher ko with my dad.

9.[X] Nakikinig ka sa iPod/MP3 mo
habang
naglelesson ang iyong titser. -at least sa phone :))--sa phone nakikinig kami ng championships ng NBA:))

10.[x] Nandoktor ka na ng mga
quarterly exams. -oo yata. THE nung second year:))

11.[x] Pinagtatawanan mo ang
teacher mo at kahit anong simpleng
bagay na mapapansin mo sa classroom. -yuzz, banday anyone?--true!!!

12.[x] Nagsusulatan kayo ng mga
kaklase
mo habang nagtuturo ang
inyong guro. -we have truckloads of notes and text messages :))--kahit phone calls thanks to sun!:))

13.[x] Kapag umalis ang inyong guro ay
tinitingnan mo ang kanyang lesson
plan. -kahit andun yung teacher at habang nagtuturo, yung sagot ko galing sa lesson plan (Physics 3rd year)

14.[x] Kumain ka habang nagtuturo ang
inyong guro. --pwede naman eh.

15.[x]Nagtetext ka habang nagtuturo
ang inyong guro. -lalo na kapag math

16.[x] Tumatayo ka sa klase kahit
hindi ka sinasabihang tumayo. --puwede naman eh

17.[ ] Nagsusulat ka sa blackboard
kahit bawal at wala ang teacher mo. --allergic ako sa chalk. at ayaw ko ng chalk dust so NO.

18.[x] Kapag walang kwenta ang subject
at ang teacher, sadyang masarap
matulog. -AMEN!!! --I second that.

19.[x] Idinodrowing mo sa notebook mo
kung ano ang itsura ng titser mo kapag
magalit. -first charicature ko, robocop= 2nd year math teacher:))

20.[x] Dinadaldal mo ang mga tahimik
sa room para tuluyan nang umingay ang
klase. --they can't help it! or I can't. either way:))

21.[x] Dinodrawing mo itsura ng
titser mo kapag cartoons itsura nya. -uhuh hanggang ngayon

TOTAL: 18.5 * 5 = 92.5
Now, multiply it by 5 at repost this as
"Gaano ka kagulo sa HS?! Ako
__%". :D

ARRRGGGH! yung 21 at 19 parehas lang yun:))

@5:00 PM

Don't get me wrong if I don't like watching news or reading the Headlines of the news paper. I just don't like bad news.

But living in Dubai, has made me reading the news paper again. Because the news papers here, well at least the part of local news aren't so heavy. Except for today, it's kind of a bit of a drag to read a story of a five-year-old getting hit by her school bus and arriving dead at the hospital, if it's on the front page, and then another on the next page, and another caption box on the same page telling the same story. I don't know the little girl, and a lot worse has happened back in Manila so, I am not deeply saddened by their loss. Sympathies for them.

The point is, the news here are informative but not entirely bad. All about new constructions, increased minimum wage for housemaids(bad news for those hiring maids, good news for Kabayans), funny news about a drunk person getting persecuted because of wearing a g-string on publiv beach, the new technology of a computer programme that rates a person's beauty on facial measurements(i like this one), and other news.

And that's where I should stop reading the news, because once I turn the page to the region and global news, things get heavy. Seeing things that remind me why I don't like reading news papers or watching news. Deaths, poverty, and the never ending Israel-Palestine war, and the never ending Gloria resign campaign.

It's not that I don't care, but there's the phrase "never ending"-- everyday it's on the news, some slight changes but the resolution is never there (well, there are suggestions of resolutions but it never gets resolved.) It's becoming hopeless, and I for one is getting tired of it.

I have been meaning to do this but I have no experience and no knowledge of how to do this: kill the president.

See? How I pick up violence from the news? They should put parental guidance warning when the news is on air. It's much worse than those action films where cars, houses, and people blow up into pieces. At least people know that it's fictional, brought upon by special effects, it's not real. But the news! Oh! It's real, it's the reality that humans like animals are capable of killing. We are even worse than them, at least they don't kill their own kind. Humans, don't just kill their own kind, we segregate, discriminate, and push our own kind to kill theirselves. It's sick, and we call ourselves civilized and higly intelligent. It's disgusting.

Gawd. All these thoughts brought upon by just skimming through the world news, being reminded of yesterday's headline about the people in Gaza strip burrying children and over-crowded morgues and lack of cement beacause of the war. Israel where the greatest place of worship for Muslims, Christians, and Jews is located, has never been in peace. It makes you think twice about religion.