Sunday, December 30, 2007 @10:33 PM
I was writing my year ender piece this morning, which I might not post here because it's too personal and I don't think people would like to read it.
The roller coaster ride is ending. And, so far things are looking up. Because I choose to be happy and that reading made me happy. I finished 4 books in two weeks!!!:D I am soooo happy:D And they are good reads:D Though I still doubt for One Hundred Years of Solitude because it's such a drag reading it. Other than that, Mitch Albom's "For One More Day", James Frey's "A Million Little Pieces" and "My Friend Leonard" are good reads. Definitely good reads. :D
After I finished reading my last book for the year, I decided to count the books I finished for this year, and they count to only ten books, and it somehow made me sad. So for next year, my goal is to finish 15 books, both fiction and non-fiction:D
Here are my preferred titles:
The Treehouse by Naomi Wolf
The Inheritance of a Loss by someone I forgot
The Half Life of Stars by Louise Wener
The Timetraveller's Wife by Audrey Niffenegger
The Memory Keeper's Daughter by Kim Edwards
The Secret of A Fire King by Kim Edwards
Fragile Things by Neil Gaiman
Stardust by Neil Gaiman
The Unbearable Lightness of a Being by Milan Kundera
The Kite Runner
Everything Bad is Good for you
Guilty Pleasures
Also for next year, 2008:
I will get at least two A's in one semester not including PE
I will not maximize the cuts I have
I will act in a play
I will quit smoking... I will make sure that a pack lasts me a week:D
I will not get involved with anyone physically and emotionally
I will not get involved with friends in any way.
I will get abs no matter what!
I will maintain my 110 lbs.
I will not cut my hair anymore.
I will learn one foreign language
I will get my license
I will try not to get a tan anymore
I will only buy clothes and shoes every christmas and my birthday
I will try not to buy clothes anymore
I will save money and not spend it on clothes
I will save money and not spend it on clothes
I will save money and not pig out
I will save money and not buy cigarettes
I will save money to buy gifts for christmas and birthdays:)
I will read more and write more
This year I will raise my hand if I know the answer or I have an opinion. I will recite in class.
I will read news papers, and not just the comics part.
I will not get involved with a friend. No more friends:D
I think that's it for now.
sana lang magawa ko yan lahat. or kahit 5 lang. masaya na ko.
HAPPY DOPEY NEW YEAR!!!:D
Monday, December 24, 2007 @11:45 PM
worst i've had.
pictures might be uploaded soon. or I dunno. it's taking the rented computer forever to upload the pictures during the sand safari, and the christmas party.
it's not christmas here. i can't feel it. it's just cold. and it's not the kind of cold that makes you happy. it's the lonely cold. it's the sad cold that makes you feel alone, lonely, and isolated. i didn't want this kind of alone-ness. there's nothing solitary in this alone-ness of being here.
this year, there's no christmas. and it's sad that at the end of the roller coaster ride that is this year, it's going slow, sad-slow. nostlagic-slow. slow that makes you vomit. makes you sick. makes you want to jump. makes you hate the ride. makes you want it to stop. stop. stop.
you get off pale, sick, and vomitting.
It makes the ride not worth it. It makes you forget the highs, the fun parts, the butterflies in your stomach, the happy-screams of the ride. And you are just left with the sickening feeling that makes your sweat cold, your heart fast, your stomach more acidic and your world spinning. spinning. spinning. you want it to stop but it won't.
all you can do is hope you'll get used to it and not get sick anymore.
and I am hoping something beautiful, wonderful and fantastic this coming new year. so that next year will be my year. the year i'll clean up my mess, the year that i will be brave enough to face the mess i made, the year i'll start working my ass, the year that i will not be paralyzed by fear.
i hope. and i wish. and being sick of what has happened this christmas, I wish harder.
Monday, December 17, 2007 @4:38 AM
Yan ang speed ng internet. at nakikiinternet lang ako kasi walang internet sa "bahay" ng tatay ko. Buti na lang nag dinner kami sa friend niya at naawa sakin pinaginternet ako.
POTANGENA!!!! HOMESICK NA KO!!!!
Isa na kong biik ngayon. So far kain lang kami ng kain ng kapatid ko at sabi ng nanay ko withdrawal symptom daw dahil hindi na ko nagyoyosi. I just shrugged my shoulders.
yes, bawal ako mag yosi. kaya puro ice cream at yogurt ang tinitira ko. at biik na talaga ko. wala kong ginagawa. the usual, yun lang, everything's just a step away. wala tuloy exercise unlike sa bahay medyo malayo ang kusina sa ref sa tv sa kama at sa banyo.
tangina, buti na lang generous ang tatay ko sa pagbili ko ng libro. Sa tatlong buwan kong ititira dito sana mabili ko lahat ng librong gusto ko. Kahapon nung nag-grocery binilan niya ko ng 2 libro:) happy! [A million little pieces by James Frey at Sophie's World ni J. something]
hindi ko pa mabuksan mail ko at hindi pa ko makapag upload ng pics. pero soon.
ititigil ko na 'to kasi naiiyak talaga ko at nakakahiyang umiyak sa bahay ng ibang tao with strangers... not really, but i just met them.
I am missing a lot of people. and a lot of things. and the thing I dreaded happened. I am to fucking stay here until my ticket expires. WTF????? 3 MONTHS???? SHEEEEEEEEEEET!
JUST IN CASE I WON'T GET TO GO ONLINE:
HAPPY CHRISTMAS AND MERRY HOLIDAYS!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!:) I MISS YOU GUYS!!!:)
I LOVE YOU:D
Friday, December 07, 2007 @2:36 PM
out of curiosity I opened this. not that I believe the bad luck thing, but with what's been happening to me lately, it wouldn't hurt to believe. and then again, how fitting can it be? :))
Once you've opened this bulletin, there's no turning back. Below are true descriptions of zodiac signs, with traits written 35 years ago by an astrologist prediction. Read your sign then repost this with your zodiac sign and label it. If you don't repost this, you will have a bad luck for as long as it says on your description.
Virgo: The Whore
Dominant in relationships. Sexy. Someone loves them right now. Freak in bed. Always wants the last words. Caring. Smart. Intellectual. Attractive. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Hard to forget. Love at first sight. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. The one and only. The ultimate sexiness. Great kisser. 7 yrs. of bad luck if you don't repost this.
Scorpio: The Lover
Can be mean sometimes. EXTREMELY SEXY. Intelligent. Energetic. Predict future. Most erotic (freak in bed). GREAT KISSER. Always get what they want. Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Caring. 4 yrs. of bad luck if you don't repost.
Libra: The Sex Addict
Very pretty. Very Romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique sexiness. Most caring person you'll ever meet. Amazing in bed! did I say amazing in bed?! Not the kind of person you want to fuck with. You might end up crying. The most irresistible. Rare to find. Funny. Talkative. Erotic. Smart. Loves sports. Gets what s/he wants. Loves in a relationship. 9 yrs of bad luck if you don't repost this.
Aries: The Sexiest
Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to fuck with. Erotic. Funny. Take you trips to the moon in bed. Excellent kisser. Extremely Sexy. Loves being in Long relationships. Addictive. Loud. Best in bed.16 yrs. of bad luck if you don't repost.
Aquarius: Does it in water
Trustworthy. Sexy. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being in long term relationships. Extremely energetic and funny. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations not a fighter, but will knock the shit out of you. The best and biggest freak in bed. Considered to be a "G". 2 yrs of bad luck if you don't repost this.
Gemini: Ultra Sexy
Nice. Love is one of a kind. Lover not a fighter, but still knock you the fuck out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing. VERY FORGIVING. Horny. Freak in bed. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. ULTRA SEXY. The most irresistible. 9 yrs. of bad luck if you do not repost.
Leo: Wild in Bed
Great talker. Sexy and Passionate. Laid back. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at making out. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Loyal. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Great when found. 7 yrs of bad luck if you don't repost.
Cancer: Most Amazing Kisser
Very high sex appeal. Great in bed! Love is one of a kind. Very Romantic. Most caring person you'll ever meet. Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak in bed. Spontaneous. Great telling stories. Not a fighter, but will knocks your light out of it comes down to it. Someone to hold on to. 12 yrs. of bad luck if you don't repost
Pisces:The Piece of ASS
Caring and kind. Smart. Too Sexy DAMN IT! Very high sex appeal. Have the last words. The best to find hardest to keep. Fun to be around. Freak in sheets. Super good in bed. Good sense of humor. Thoughtful. A partner for life. Always what she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet. 5 yrs. of bad luck if you don't repost.
Capricorn: The passionate Lover
Love being in long relationships. Great talker. Always loves to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future. Irresistible. Awesome kisser. Gets what s/he wants. By FAR The best in BED. Very sexy. Loves to own Gemini. In sports. Extremely Fun. Loves to joke. Love's to be your first so you will never forget. Smart. 24 yrs of bad luck if don't repost.
Taurus: The Freak in Bed
Aggressive. Freak in bed. Rare to find. Loves in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Sexy. Loves to help people in times of need. Outstanding kisser. Very funny. Awesome personality. Stubborn. Sexual. The most caring person you'll ever meet. One of a kind. Not one to fuck with. Are the sexiest people in earth. 15 yrs of bad luck if you don't repost.
Sagittarius: The Sexy One
Spontaneous. Horny. Freak in bed. Great in bed. Loves being in long relationships. The one. So much love to give. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. There love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Most caring person you'll ever meet. Not the kind of person you want to mess with you might end up crying. 4 yrs of bad luck if you don't repost