Wednesday, August 29, 2007 @4:22 AM
i couldn't think of a good title, and then i heard Golum's voice saying "my precious". hahaha. i think this is a long entry so if you read, matiyaga ka.:))
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Emo you? Emo me.
At this point, I want to die now. Or at least push a button to eject myself from this world.
Sci 10 thoughts. In this case Sci 10 is not that much useless, but pointless? Oh yes, I still find it utterly pointless.
Back to sci 10 thoughts.
Death is THE easy way out.
If you die today, you don’t have to think about tomorrow and the things you have to do. YOU DON’T HAVE TO THINK because your brain is not functioning anymore. Cool right?
If you die today, you don’t have to worry about the things you have to do tomorrow. You don’t have to worry because you won’t be there anymore, you’re dead.:)
If you die today, then the world doesn’t have to worry about how to feed you, or sustain your life, or provide a good future for you.
Why do people dread death anyway? At this time, when the earth is deteriorating and the world is a time bomb, death is a very good solution to all the problems in this world.
So please I want to die right now!
Ngayon pa lang nagd-dawn sa akin ang bigat ng mga dapat kong gawin! Pero somehow, I don’t worry that much kasi alam ko kaya ko gawin, in time of the demand. I cannot afford any delay because I have nothing to pay for the damages. Pero wish ko lang talaga eh hindi ako tamarin at kayanin ng katawan ko ang mga kailangan kong gawin.
Okay, ayoko ng pasulpot-sulpot na problema sa “boy” sa mga ganitong panahon! Isang malaking istorbo!!! Hindi ko na nga pinapansin pero tuwing makakakita ako ng mga bagay o lugar na nagpapaalala sa’yo, naiisip ko nanaman ang mga bagay-bagay tungkol sa atin! Oo, sa atin. Merong “tayo”, “atin”, at hindi lang “ikaw” at “ako” magkasama tayo. Mayroong ganoon, pero hindi nga lang sa ganoong konteksto.
Alam ko, hindi kita mahal, hindi sa ganoong konteksto. Alam ko hindi mo rin ako mahal. Kaya naman hindi ko alam kung ano nangyayari sa atin ngayon.
But, then again, you don’t really look for love.
It was discussed in Sci 10 that organisms are genetically wired to find the best mate. Organisms don’t look for love they look for that organism that best fit the description of what they want. Prolific reproduction.
I agree. We don’t look for love; we look for the ideal partner. You look for someone who can provide at least your basic needs* and satisfy your wants. And when you find him/her, you spend time with her, and that’s the only time love comes in. You learn to love something/someone when you get attached. After sometime, you may lose that attachment when you find someone/something new, something/someone better, or that something/someone becomes useless then you throw it away and go look for a new one that will fit your ideal partner.
So, in a relationship, love is not really important. It’s more of being the ideal partner.
*Basic needs of man according to Ms. Rosalinda Erpelo: food, clothing, shelter, water, sex [I think it was based on Maslow’s Heirarchy of Needs]
At dahil hindi naman kailangan ng love ang relationship, lamang pa tayo kasi mayroon tayong “love” kahit papaano. Sa aking pagi-isip wala naman kailangan pang pagisipan pa, kung kinakausap mo lang ako ngayon. Ganito na lang ba palagi? Ganito, tapos, may sasabihin ako, tapos sasabihin mo ganito, tapos sasabihin ko oo, tapos tatakbo ka, tapos hindi nanaman natin pag-uusapan tapos siyempre hindi kita kukulitin, tapos wala nanaman. Paulit-ulit. Andali lang naman ng maaring isagot, “oo” at “hindi” yun lang pagpipilian hindi mo pa masagot. Hindi ka pa rin nagbabago, torpe ka pa rin. Hahaha. Ang problema nga lang ngayon, hindi natin alam ang mga nangyayari sa utak mo.
“My mind says no but my body and soul said yes, I hate this mess.” –Lil L.O.V.E.