i got this from blog hopping from kim's to jedyne's multiply:)) list 20 things you want to say to people but know you never. Don't say who they are.

here it goes...

1. You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains. feeling mo kasi kilala mo ko, pero sa totoo, feeling mo lang yun. at for once yung feeling mo mali.
2. napaka landi mo talaga! isa kang womanizer kahit ipilit mong hindi, yun ang tingin sa'yo ng lahat ng tao. itsura mo pa lang babaerong babaero na.
3. hoy! miss na kita! may utang ka pang luch sakin! hindi na tayo natuloy tuloy! feeling ko tuloy hindi mo na ko mahal.
4. yung regalo ko sayo para sa birthday mo na sa akin pa. tinatamad akong pumunta sa inyo at ibigay.
5. nap-praning ako sa mga sinusulat mo. puwede ba, hindi ko kayo ginugulo ng boyfriend mo okay? over na ko sakaniya at sayong sayo na siya. kebs ko??? magsama kayo sa smaket!
6. oh gahd! ang feeling mo! hindi porket magaling ka magdrums at kamukha ka ng ex crush ko ay guapo ka na. oh gehd nooooo! actually, scary ka talaga!
7. ang hot mo super!!! kaso wag ka na lang magsalita. nakaka turn off boses mo eh. sayang, matalino ka pa naman.
8. okay, namimiss kita. at nakakagulat ang mga pangyayari! woah. pero happy ako para sayo:D sorry kung feeling mo at feeling ng lahat ng tao pinaasa kita. pero hindi talaga. friends naman tayo diba? yung isa kong blog entry, ikaw yung namimiss ko dun.:)
9. alam ko nakakapagod ako. minsan ayoko nang magsabi sa'yo pero ikaw lang yung may patience sa mga thoughts ko. you rationalize and organize my brainstorms! and i am missing you a lot because of all the things we used to do and we used to share! pacrash sa bahay minsan:D
10. Kapag naghubad ba ko sa harapan mo, hindi ka na magiging bading? hahahaha
11. clothes are worn to cover parts that should not be seen. nagdamit ka pa kung ipapakita mo lang rin naman ang kaluluwa mo.
12. nagseselos ako sayo. parang mas close pa kayo ngayon kesa samin. you get the boys you want. even those you dont want, you get.
13. ay naku, kasalanan mo to eh. ang daldal daldal mo kasi! banat ka pa ng banat!
14. huwag ka ng umasa. pinagbigyan lang kita dati, okay? hindi talaga kita mahal. akala ko lang yun. dun ka na lang sa nanay ng anak mo.
15. I don't like your teeth.
16. Puwede bang makipag break ka na sa girlfriend mo at totohanin mo na yung mga joke mo? tayoooo na lang! sabi mo bagay naman tayo eh!:))
17. okay, mali yung ginawa ko. at napaka pride ko forever. pero nahurt talaga ko, okay. kasi i want you! i doesn't have to have a reason. and you don't need a reason. it's okay to want me too.:D
18. alam ko weird tayo ngayon. pero, okay lang ba na nasa 18 roses kita?:) pupunta naman ata mom mo eh. sumabay ka na lang sakaniya:)
19. gawd. don't be such a hypocrite. don't be too papansin. you're too old for that. and it's not funny.
20. ano kaya kung maging tayo? hmmmm... hindi wag na lang. hindi maganda yun. let's just stay friends. hahaha

"What I learned in History Class: Everything is relative yet people talk as if all things are absolute."

at yan din yung point ng histo prof ko nung summer. and it hit me.

everything is relative, history teaches us what could be not what must be. Meaning things can happen, things can not happen. it does not mean that when you do this, then this thing will absolutely follow. It does not mean when you say this, reactions will absolutely surface. minsan nga, gawin mo na to, sabihin mo na yun, wala pa rin eh. kahit na nung ginawa mo yun dati, eh may nangyari, hindi ibig sabihin na kapag ginawa mo ulit eh may makukuha ka pa rin.

nothing is for certain. yet people want certainty. stability. why need assurance when it's fun to be always on your toes? the funny thing is that the things that people wants certainty on are feelings. feelings are not permanent. feelings are caused by chemical reactions in your body. hindi naman puwedeng forever na lang na ganun yung reaction ng katawan mo sa mga stimulus sa lahat ng oras. aba, abnormal ka kung ganun. how can you demand certainty from something that is naturally uncertain?

feelings are definitely relative. yet people talk about feelings with absolute conviction.

okay, friendship over na talaga.

I don't want to be treated like shit anymore. Alam ko may mali ako, pero kapag may ginagawa naman akong hindi mo gusto I make up for it. All I ever asked from you was time, time lang. Hindi mo pa nabigay.

How weird can that be? You hang out with my friends, but you never hang out with me. They know you more than I know you now.

arggggggghhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! tangina ka! sobrang bad trip talaga ko sa'yo. huwag kang magalala. 'yong mga tinatanong ko sa'yo nung birthday mo, monday yun, nasagot na ng mga taong kasama mo nung ginawa mo yun.

salamat, ha. salamat.

salamat sa wala.

Oh yes!! Another cinemalaya filmJ watched it in UP with my cousin and her friend, Ena. (thanks jedyne for the tickets!:D)

Kahit na todo ulan, at nasira phone ko. Happy pa rin:D kasi nga nakita ko yung nanay ni celine(yung sa maging sino ka man:D) at siyempre si OMAYGAHD IT’S THE RAMON BAUTISTA SHOW! And it pained that I do not have camera with meL

Well, mas maganda manuod sa CCP. Pero, maganda rin naman yung film na Pisay:D Mas malinis yung storya, tsaka naiyak ako sa ending. Though hindi ako ganun ka-relate compared sa maraming nanunuod sa Cine Adarna, okay lang.

Maganda yung filmJ gusto ko yung play na sinulat nung friend ni Daki(nakalimutan ko yung pangalan eh… Ma…. Basta yun!) Na inspire tuloy ako gumawa ng film tungkol naman sa Kisay! Wahahaha! Pero… ano kaya ang storya?

Galeng nung nagsulat! Kudos to you!

God, is this punishment?

Sira na yung hand me down laptop ko. Blackout yung camera ko. Sira yung cameraphone ko, at na-demote na yung cellphone ko, TAPOS NASIRA PA!!!

What did I do now?:(

Hindi tuloy ako nakapagpapicture sa nanay ni celine at kay Ramon Bautista!!!!:(

At siyempre, wala na talaga kong gagamiting cellphone. Nahihiya naman ako humingi sa magulang ko kasi ambaba ng grades ko, pero siyempre hindi nila alam yun. Tapos magastos pa this year.

Shet man. This must be God telling me to pull up my grades.

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guys, if you have something to say, you can call my house, IM me, visit me, or email me. text and other cellphone business will be impossible.

hindi kita matiis.

okay, fine stupid mouth ako at lahat. pero ewan. minsan talaga hindi kita matansiya. alam mo yun? mabait naman ako sayo, i didn't hide anything from you. but its just freaking hurts for you to treat me like this. ewan.

FO.

FRIENDSHIP OVER.

ewan ko. bibigay ko na lang yung ticket sa'yo at magisa ka manuod ng transformers mo.

hindi naman ako nagkulang sayo. ewan ko ba. tangina. ngayon lang ulit ako umiyak. ganun kasakit mga sinabi mo. ganun kasakit mga ginawa mo. alam mo ba yun?

you're more than just a friend. you are my bestfriend. and i don't know if i still am for you. cause you don't treat me like that. siguro nga tag na lang yun. pangalan lang. label. pero wala lang naman talaga.

sobrang gusto ko mabasa mo to lahat. pero wag na lang din. kasi wala lang naman to. alam mo yun.

okay, fine. sorry nagkamali ako. kung dinadrama mo yung alam ni rana, kasi hindi ko alam gagawin ko okay. kung hindi mo alam gagawin mo, mas lalong hindi ko alam gagawin ko. HINDI KO TALAGA ALAM, okay? at kung sa tingin mo may ibang may alam, hind nila alam. well, alam nilang lahat yung akin, at mga naiisip ko at mga kagaguhan ko. pero, sabi ko nga hind yun isa sa mga panggagago ko. hindi kita ginago, okay? kasi kung ginago lang kita, at wala lang yun sakin, hindi ko kinakailangang kausapin si rana.

i needed sense that time. as in sense bigtime!!! kasi leche ka eh. ewan ko.

MALI. mali talaga yung ginawa ko. okay, sorry. hindi ako nagisip nun. sorry talaga.

"You don't know me"

Yeah, I don't know you anymore.

Maybe, I never knew you.

How can I? You never really showed who you are. And I thought we were friends.

That made me thinking... Are we still friends?

Ewan ko sayo. You frustrate me. You make me want to hate you, BIGTIME!

Lucy

Lucy Van Pelt works hard at being bossy, crabby and selfish. She is loud and yells a lot. Her smiles and motives are rarely pure. She's a know-it-all who dispenses advice whether you want it or not--and for Charlie Brown, there's a charge. She's a fussbudget, in the true sense of the word. She's a real grouch, with only one or two soft spots, and both of them may be Schroeder, who prefers Beethoven. As she sees it, hers is the only way. The absence of logic in her arguments holds a kind of shining lunacy. When it comes to compliments, Lucy only likes receiving them. If she's paying one--or even smiling--she's probably up to something devious.

March 3, 1952
Lucy's debut on Peanuts.

Feb. 16, 1954
Lucy being the big sister.

Dec. 15, 1962
Lucy as a feminist.

March 22, 1976
Charlie Brown tells Lucy she is crabby.

shet. secret love ni Jojo.

"Just a friend, that's all I've ever been to you

but I ain't got much to offer but my heart and soul. and i guess that's not enough for you to notice me.

i'm just a girl and I guess that's all I'll ever be to you

I try to smile when I see other girls with you, acting like everything's ok"

shet man. tangatanga talaga. sige, push him away. tapos sa huli ikaw nanaman ang wala. go push!

ayoko naaaaa!!!

sana may push button to detach. o kaya to eject self from earth.

6/12/06

8 months, and 20 days ago, sinabi ko kay niki, "2mrw, i wil die" pero andami ng inumang lumipas, naka-ilang pack na ng sigarilyo ang naubos ko, nagka-chicken pox na ko, at dumaan ako sa isang depression at matinding stress, eh buhay pa rin ako. tama si niki, sabi niya: "You won't."

sa totoo lang hindi ko na maalala kung bakit ko sinabi kay niki yun. ang natatandaan ko lang sa araw na yun, uminom kami ni niki sa bahay niya habang nanunuod ng "smokers" at hindi ko na maalala kung paano ko nakauwi. :))

ayun, hanggang ngayon nasa phone ko pa rin ang message na yon kasi ang mga heart-to-heart namin ni niki hindi ko binubura. tapos sobrang natuwa kami kanina parehas doon sa nabasa niya na sinabi ko sakaniya dati...

"I know:) kaya have faith. The desires of your heart will be granted when you're ready.:)"

at well, natupad ang hinihiniling ng heart of hearts ni niki noong mga panahon ngayon.

at sa tingin ko, hindi pa nga ko handa. hell, hindi nga ako sigurado eh. paano pa ko magiging handa?

"when in doubt, DON'T!!!"

yan palagi kong sinasabi. pero bakit ngayon, parang ang hirap humindi? parang ansaysaya. pero alam ko hindi ito magiging masaya in the long run. pessimist na kung pessimist, pero kasi naman! ang hirap talaga. parang ako, go lang ng go... hindi na nagi-isip. tapos hesitant naman yung kasama mo, unsure pa. kaya tuloy ako, hindi ko alam kung saan ako lulugar. shet naman. ayoko sa huli magmumukhang naggaguhan lang tayo. ayoko talaga, okay. kung ibang tao, okay lang na magmukhang naggaguhan lang kami, pero sa'yo, iba. hindi puwede yung ganun. hindi ka naman wala lang eh. never was. hindi mo ba naiintindihan? sobrang frustrating ka kahit kailan! alam mo ba yun? hindi ko alam kung anong gusto mo.

huwag kang magd-drama sakin na feeling mo wala ka lang, dahil sa mga nangyari. mas nararamdaman ko na ako lang yung wala lang sa'yo sa mga pinag-gagagawa mo eh.

okay, mas gumulo lalo ngayon. shet man. hindi ko na talaga alam. ayoko, pero weird, tapos, ewan. tangina anlabo talaga.

parang mas mangyayari pa yung, "tomorrow, i will die" kesa satin eh.

tipaklong. tipaklong. ako'y tipaklong.

ano ba 'tong ginagawa ko? magkakaleche-leche nanaman buhay ko neto eh.

TIGILAN NAAAA! alam niyo namang naggagaguhan lang kayo. kahit sabihin mong hindi, sa huli magmumukha't magmumukhang ginago mo lang siya. at alam mo namang ginagago ka lang niya. sinabi na nga niya diba? tigilan na kasi. walang patutunguhan ang mga kalokohang pinaggagagawa mo.

ang tigas talaga ng ulo mo. humingi ka na nga ng sign, hindi ka pa rin tumitigil. tigilan na kasi.

hay naku. kakain na lang ako ng cake.

kasi naman, ang labo mo.

the sight of rollercoasters makes me nervous, scared and hesitant. but I ride them anyway.

it has been a hellufa rollercoaster lately. my entry last night was soo high that the events today made me plummet down and makes me want to jump out. but i am strapped in until the ride ends. though i hope it won't end. :)

i guess i am a jealous person, it's just that I don't show it. I pretend I don't care and him flirting with other girls doesn't bother me.

i am also a rebounder. siguro kaya yun yung position ko sa basketball.:)) I am trying to learn not to be a rebounder. More of a shooting guard. :) I am getting better now in ball handling, I just need to practice shooting:D

Now I know why men likes basketball. IT'S HELLUVA FUN!!!:D

speaking of fun... I don't know how many loops this roller coaster has, neither do I know how many unpleasant downfalls it has. I'm just wishing at the end of this, something stable will come out and it will leave a good feeling, that makes you want to ride it again. Not the nauseating kind that leaves you looking uberly haggard.

okay, today was kinda tight for me. had a hard time waking up this morning, then we have a 1230 lunch with my aunt and lola, then a 3 pm party of my little cousin and then tin's debut at 6 pm.

managed okay. sad lang that it's shang's end of season sale tapos wasn't able to buy anything:(

but, it ended fun!

tiin's debut and I thought rich was mad, but then he thought i was mad. so we kissed and made up. haha:)) kidding. we're not together to kiss and make up like lovers. we just made sure were not mad at each other or hold grudges against each other.

in all fairness, rich's hot tonight:) his new hair suits him well, and todo lean na siya. and i was jealous that he was flirting with other girls, but at the end of the night, i prevailed!:D

my gawd! i can't wipe off the silly smile on my face! I don't know why I am happy. I just feel happy:) kinikilig meeeee!!!

WAAAAAAHHH!!! kinikilig talaga me!!!:D okaaay...this post might not really end up for view to anyone.

it'll be our little secret.:D nobody will know about it. well, si mangs na sobrang lakas ng pandama ay kinukulit si rich about it. pero todo deny naman si rich. hahaha:)) my bestfriend's hot!!

i don't want to think about it, because there's nothing to think about. I like rich, he's hot.:)) pero, the boyfriend thing? hmmm... no! hahaha. see? kapag inisip ko kasi magiging malabo. but since ako ang nanlalandi, nothing to think about.

boys think they're the only ones who can play around. do something and make the girls think crazy about what it means, when the bottomline is that it's just plain flirting. girls can do that too.

i'm listening to "I'll Be the One" by Backstreet Boys. ooh lala!!!:) imana keep this going and see where it'll go. one day at a time. hahaha:) tama na ako ang nag first move. if he wants more, i'll give more. pero kung ayaw na niya, keber. haha

pero merong first si rich. hahaha. actually, all the guys that I kissed(dares not counted and I am sober) had their share of my firsts.

like Vince, first kiss; Alex, first guy that I kissed with real feelings; DQ, first second:)); Zab, first sweet kiss at spiderman; Rich, first second kiss. hahaha:))

haaaay:) imana turn in. date with rana and lorie tomorrow:D

1. Your ex and you = never had one
2. I am listening to = nothing.
3. Maybe I should = sleep
4. I love = life
5. Chocolate = is good when it's dark
6. I don’t understand = life
7. I have lost my respect for = society
8. I last ate = nilagang baka
9.The meaning of my display name is = no idea
10. God = is ultimately perfect:)
11. Someday = i'll die.
12. I will always remember = high school
13. Love seems to = be lost.
14. I never ever want to lose = my loves
15. My Multiply is = time consuming
16.Tomorrow I will = catch up on sleep
17. I get annoyed when = people mock me
18. Parties = are FUN!!!
19. Simple kisses = SWEET
21. Today I = was in school for more than 12 hours
22. I wish = I could fly

IS YOUR / ARE YOU...

01. is your hair wet?:
no

02. is your cell phone right by you?
yes

03. do you miss someone?:
hmmm... yes:)

04. are you wearing chap stick?
no

05. are you tired?:
YES!!!

06. are you wearing pajamas?:
not yet

08. are you mad?
nope

09. are you upset?:
nope

HAVE YOU...
01. Recently done something you regret?
none

02. ever stuck gum under a desk?:
that's gross

03. ever kicked someone?:
yes

04. ever tripped over your own feet?:
yes

TODAY HAVE YOU...

01. have you cursed?
oh yess

02. have you gotten mad at someone?
not today

-person who is on your mind right now?
wala

Q: do you have any siblings?
brothers

Q: do you want children?
yes... but not yet my own.

Q: do you smile often?
yes.

Q: do you untie your shoes every time you take them of?
no.

Q: do you like your handwriting?
could be better

Q: are your toenails painted?
nope. but my fingernails are:)

Q: are you a friendly person?
sure

Q: whose bed other than yours do you sleep in?
my mom's

Q: what color shirt are you wearing?
white and black

Q: what were you doing at 7pm yesterday?
getting hot oil at a salon:)

Q: I can’t wait for: the next party!!!!

01. Eyeliner or Mascara? mascara

02. Louis vuttion or dooney & bourke? louis vuitton.

03. American eagle or hollister? hollister
04. Pumps or flats? pumps

05. Skirts or pants? skirts

06. Socks or leggings? socks.

07. Hoodies or jackets? hoodies.

08. Heels or sneakers? sneakers.

09. Straight or curly hair? i have straight now, but i miss my curls:(

10. Hoop or dangling earrings? studs.

13. White or black? white

14. victoria’s secret or bath and body works? bath and body

15. Smoothies or latte? hmmmm... lately, latte

16. Diet or regular sodas? no sodas

17. Water or daquiries? water.

18. Pearls or diamonds? diamonds

19. Vintage or boho? vintage

20. Marykate or Ashley Olsen? hmmm... ashley

21. Lindsay or Hilary? lindsay. i like her fashion sense better:)

22. Ipod or cell phone? my ipod's dunzo, so cellphone

23. Friends or family? hmmm... friends are my family too:)

24. Lip gloss or lip stick? lipgloss

25. Manicure or pedicures? manicure:)

26. M.A.C or sephora? m.a.c. looks good more with lights, so mac:)

27. Tank tops or beaters? tank tops

28. tiffany’s or chanel? tiffany's.

29. love or peace? peace:)

30. Sunglasses or purses? sunglasses.

X what you own:

[x] an ipod/mp3.
[ ] a real louis vuttion purse.
[x] a computer.
[x] a cd player.
[x] a stereo.
[ ] a spice girl cd.
[x] a cosmo magazine.
[x] a teddy bear.
[] a build a bear.
[ ] an American eagle purse.
[ ] hollister shorts.
[ ] a hot topic shirt.
[x] a cell phone.
[ ] an aeropostale shirt.
[] a big screen TV
[x] the mean girls dvd.
[] a TV in my room.
[] a big bed
[x] a brother or sister.
[x] a diamond ring / bracelet
[] pearl necklace
[x] a prom dress.
[x] a book.
[x] a myspace.
[ ] curious perfume
[ ] g-unit sneakers.
[x] a black shirt.
[x] a cig.
[ ] a kid

Sa wakas!!! Napanuod ko na rin yung acts after intermission ng LITISANG BILOG NG CAUCASUS!

Guys, CONGRATULATIONS! super ganda ng show tonight! sobrang taas ng energy!!!! galing!

para po sa mga taong nanuod at sumuporta sa aming dula, MARAMING MARAMING SALAMAT PO! sana po ay nagustuhan niyo ang aming palabas.:)

sa tatlong linggo na ako ay nag house, nag marketing, at paminsan-minsang nag Finance, nakakasilip ako sa mga eksena ng dula at ng mapanuod ko ang palabas kanina, ay talaga namang nabilib ako sa mahika at galing ng teatro. Sobrang iba 'yong palabas kagabi. Si Amos, todo bigay sa kanyang pagkanta. Anlakas ng boses kumpara sa mga shows in between. Tapos mas maraming improvisions. At si Jappy, may mga gabi na blanko yung mukha niya sa hilaan, kagabi, todo yung expression ng mukha niya.

Para sa akin, performance-wise, best show 'yong last show.

at mas mabait ang audience kanina, compared sa ibang shows na talaga namang.... ayoko na lang magsalita.

pero, kahit stressful mag-house, sobrang natuwa ako sa trabaho ko. madami kang makikitang tao. pero sa tingin ko kailangan ko pang pagibayuhin ang aking pakikisalamuha sa mga tao. I need to master the "grace under pressure" virtue. kasi minsan, nahahalata ang aking pagkayamot sa mga batang pasaway. at minsan halatang halata na naloloka na ko, kasi andaming tao tapos ang onti lang ng house staff na kasama ko.

kay rage at lalo na kay bea, salamat sa pag-h-house kahit na lights kayo ni Herwin. salamat rin kay May na palaging tumutulong at nag f-Finance.:) at sa mga tumulong mag ayos ng FOH na hindi house salamat!:) super thank you:)

sa mga actors, GREAT JOB!

that is all i am hearing right now. thanks, mom. thank you for scolding me in front of those little brats who show little respect everyday to me. thank you.

you freaking brat, who thinks he's better than me, reality check, no matter how hard you'll study, no matter how many hours you'll give studying, you will never get to where I am. NEVER. pare, mag basketball ka na lang. oh yeah, I forgot, you're not good enough to get into your school's varsity. UNLIKE me, who has no knowledge of playing basketball, got in my school's basketball varsity team, and WE WIN. I don't care if they tell me not to be tough on you, you have always beaten me physically. HANGGANG DOON KA LANG NAMAN EH. manapak, mamitik at manuntok. HANGGANG DOON KA LANG. mag debate na lang tayo! ay onga pala, hindi ka marunong magsalita. quiz bee na lang kaya?

i know you will read this, and I intend for you to read this, you know who you are. and I DON'T CARE IF YOU TELL ON ME. doon ka lang naman magaling eh, magsumbong.

AND FOR YOU, THE OTHER EVIL, YOU DON'T KNOW ME. You don't know what you're talking about. You think so high of yourself, you self righteous hypocrite. oh yeah, you are not a hypocrite. You are the goody two shoes. You're the good child, sorry I am not like you. It is not my fault I have different beliefs, why don't you blame him? It's just too bad, you don't have friends like I have. You don't go out and have fun. Oh, yes, you don't know fun. Too bad. I pity you.

blah blah blah. I know, I'm gonna hear this soon. or probably read, IF I will read it.

FYI, if you didn't have a life, well I do, and I plan to enjoy it while it's there.

just because it's playing right now:)

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Lucy, stop blogging and blog hopping, and actually DO your psych homework.

but my mood now is sleepy for homework. if there is such a thing:)

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the song suits what i am feeling right now. :)

as i was blog hopping, i happened to drop by and read blogs from certain people that made me go, "I can finally say, with all conviction, that I am completely over you."

reading their blogs made me really happy. as in, HAPPY:D and being happy from reading such cheesy exchange of lines and such mushy blog entries mean that I really am over it.

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power nap?

tapusin mo na homework mo. sobrang dali lang.

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i am happy that i am not missing:)

-----------------------i saw this written somewhere-------------------------------

"I'm so happy I'm not missing you

I don't miss your smile, no, I don't even remember how you used to smile.

I don't miss your voice, no, I don't believe all the sweet talk that escaped you.

I don't miss your touch. No more callous, dry hands."

kanina nasa FOH kami ni Pia, tapos may freshman na lumapit, hinahanap niya 'yong kanyang kaibigan na trainee, kaso hindi ko kilala yung trainee, so tinanong namin kung bakit, may ibibigay lang raw siya. tapos binigay niya na lang samin. nang tanungin namin kung ano iyon, letter of appreciation raw. na sa tingin ko ay prinint pa niya sa RSF.

so, binasa namin ni Pia...

omaygad! ang super sweet:) sobrang nakakataba ng puso. kasi first time ko maka-encounter ng comment sa play na galing sa isang estudyante na isinulat pa talaga. sobrang nakakatuwa 'yong mga sinulat niya, at ang galing niya magsulat sa Filipino.

nakakatuwa talaga.

nakakatuwang maisip na may mga taong nakaka-appreciate ng mga pinaghihirapan na produksyon lalo na para sa mga taga teatro. at mas nakakatuwang isipin na ang mga taong hindi naman talaga mahilig manuod ng mga ganoong klase ng "art" ay naa-appreciate ang aming craft. :)

[okay, frustrated na ko!!! hindi ko maisip ang tamang salita sa Filipino!!!! gawd!!!]

pagpaumanihin ang aking walang saysay na pagsusulat. sa aming mga giliw na manunuod, tinatanggap po ng Tanghalang Ateneo ang inyong mga komento at suhesyon upang aming mapabuti at mapaganda ang aming mga dula at pagtatanghal:)

doon sa nagbigay ng sulat, maraming maraming salamat sa iyo:)

husbandry.

(class, let's laugh!)

ha. ha.

oh, I'm sorry that was a cough.

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kasi july 18 ngayon:))(kaya #18

you have new girls now eh? it's okay.

i have new girls too.

hahaha.

though the one that i'm using is still performing its functions, its on it's way to collapsing.

every time i fucking type the monitor goes exorcist/white noise on me! and i hate the person who did this to the laptop. MY STUPID BROTHER WITH BRAIN AS SMALL AS A FUCKING PEA, THREW THE LAPTOP ON ME! GAWD!!!! AND I GET THE FUCKING BLAME. AND THIS IS PUNISHMENT! THIS LAPTOP WAS MY DAD'S DURING THE JURASSIC AGE AND HAS BEEN PASSED ON TO ME IN A NOT SO GOOD CONDITION ANYMORE AND I HAVE TO BARE WITH ITS DISFUNCTIONALITIES LIKE THE MOUSE GOING BERSERK AND THE MONITOR!!!!!!!!

AND THE BATTERY!!!! GAWD!!! IF YOU PULL THE PLUG, GAWD THE FREAKING COMPUTER WOULD JUST BLACK OUT AND YOU HAVE SLIM CHANCE OF RECOVERING WHATEVER IT IS THAT YOU'RE DOING.

LIKE TODAY, I WAS DOING MY HOMEWORK FOR PSYCH. 2 HOURS BEFORE MY CLASS, AND THE FREAKING MAID BUMPED THE BATTERY AND IT DIED SO DID THE FREAKING COMPUTER! AND ALL THAT I TYPED FLEW INTO OBLIVION! GAWD THE ONLY THING SAVED WAS MY NAME, SECTION, TEACHER'S NAME, DATE AND THE FIRST PARAGRAPH THAT HAS NOT MUCH OF RELEVANCE!!!!

GAWDDDDDDD!!! I KNOW, THAT I SHOULD JUST BE DOING IT INSTEAD OF RANTING ABOUT IT BUT I JUST CAN'T GO BACK INTO THAT ZONE. I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO PISSED OFF! AND FRUSTRATED!!! GAWD.

I AM NOT PASSING MY PSYCH HOMEWORK TODAY.

i just finished watching Finding Nemo:D i miss that movie. I've watched it a thousand times that i've memorized my favorite parts already:)

i love the story of Finding Nemo. It's not just about Nemo's cuteness, Marlin and Dory's funny adventure. But it's all about having really protective parents who don't trust you and their journey to finding you and letting you go.

If you live in the ocean, so free and so wonderful, then your parents suddenly pretends that you live in an aquarium, that would just suck. And so one day, you just have to stand up and prove to them that you can make it out there, and survive with the help of your friends.

And hopefully they will realize that you can be responsible, and that you can really make it. and when they do, they'll let you go.

"He's saying it's time to let go... You have to let go, it's going to be alright." -Dory

"How do you know that nothing bad will happen?" -Marlin

"I don't..." - Dory

and Dory and Marlin let go, things turned out good at the end, though it was a wavy ride.

it's all good!

finally after over a month, i got to see my UP friends for a round of drinks!:D ayos! empty lot, music, drinks, chips and most of all good 'ol company:D

and i was rewarded by my mom for being really mabait lately. and now, she's thanking theater for it! oh yes! i might be back to the theater scene for good! my dad said i've been a good girl too:D

loving life now!

(well, except fort he headache from last night!)

opens eye, "hmmmm...." then next thing i know it's 9 am and i promised myself i'll start my doing my english homework but i just close my eyes and sleep instead.

"ate weng, alis na ko. mal-late na ko!!" bam! wait for trike.

"manong katipunan." reaches inside bag, take a pack, and light a cig, "should i quit? nah... think anbout it tomorrow."

a couple of times you'd hear, "OMG! I saw (insert name of one of my crushes here)!!!" or "omg! sir is just super hot!!"

and then, i'd promise myself .... but i always postpone it.

two exams down. one more to go. and there's nothing on my mind but sleep and eat. i don't know what's wrong with me but that's what i want to do and have been doing lately.

it's just soooo ard to focus! damn it!

imana "power nap"

yan ang title kasi yan yung tumutugtog...

saw this on monika lara guballa's blog and copied it. (not the answers though) kasi tinatamad pa ko pumasok.

1.Dapat ba gwapo?
- oh yes:)

2.Matalino?
- oh yes:) gusto ko yung mas matalino sakin pero kunwari mas matalino ako sa kanya:)

3.Preferred Age?
- a year older:)

4.Preferred Height?
- 5'8" - 6"

5.How about sense of humor?
- kailangan mapatawa niya ko:)

6.How about piercings?
- okay lang.pero kailangan bagay sa kaniya yung piercing(s)

7. Accepts u for who u are?
- definitely.

8. Pink hair?
- no. i like guys with their natural hair color:) or hair color that looks natural on them:D

9.Mushy or no?
- no please!

10.Thin or Fat?
- lean:) who wants thin meat or fatty meat? mas masarap na bacon yung lean:D hahaha

11.Moreno or Chinito or Mestiso?
- AYOKO NA NG CHINITO. OKAY?

12.Long Hair or Short Hair?
- hot ang guy kung bagay long hair sa kaniya:)

13.Plastic or Metal?
- metal spoon and fork, please. napuputol kasi plastic spoon and fork eh:))

14.Smells good?
- oh yes!!!! mahilig ako mangamoy:) lalo na kapag mabango... hmmmm:) gusto ko yung amoy bagong ligo:)

15.Smoker?
- well... unfair kung sabihin kong NO... pero gusto ngayon yung good boy eh:))

16.Drinker?
- social drinker! wahahaha! basta mataas alcohol tolerance, okay lang. pero wag naman yung araw araw. social drinker;)

17.boy-next-door type?
- ayoko kapitbahay namin eh::)) hmmmm... yung good boy-next-door type:D

18. Musically inclined?
- oh yes! drummer boys are hot!!!!:D

19.Plays Piano?
- dreamy:) more instruments the hotter:D

20.Plays bass and acoustic guitar?
- ayos lang. basta magaling:) kasi too common.

21.Plays violin?
- sana:)

22.Sings very good?
- kahit semi-good lang:)

23.vain?
- uhmmm... meron bang taong hindi vain? well, sa mga guapo, mahirap makahanap ng guapo na hindi vain.

24.With Glasses?
- ok lang:)

25. With Braces?
- uhhhh... like guys with nice teeth:D

26.Shy type?
- uhmmm... baka ma upstage ko siya:))

27. frm what school?
- no comment:))

28.Active or Passive?
- active? kasi kapag passive nap-praning ako at maaway ko lang.

29.Sporty or kikay?
- Parang hindi ko maimagine kung pano yung kikay. @_@--- i agree with nikka! ano yun bading? pero gusto ko athletic:p

30.Singer or Dancer?
- ooooh!! dancer? pero mas madali pakantahin kapag singer eh.

31.suplado?
- yung mukhang suplado pero hindi:D

32.hiphop?
- manamit? noooo... but it's cool if he listens to hiphop:)

33.earrings?
- okay lang. kung bagay... ooh bad boy:D

35.torpe/hard to get?
- uhhhh... torpe=frustrating. hard to get=exciting... pero wag sobra!

36.mr.count-my-ex-till-u-drop?
- uhhh.. no thank you.

37.dimples?
- well.... kung cute, why not?:))

38.bookworm?
- yes. pero yung hindi halata:)

39.mr.love letter?
- sweet:D

40. may goatee?
- uhhh... parang off. i don't know. never been with a guy with a goatee

41.flirt?
- no more, please.

42.poem writer?
- cool:D why not?

43.serious?
- serious but knows when and how to have fun.

44. galante?
- why not?

45.campus crush?
- so-so.

45.painter?
- artisitic:) i like artsy guys na matalino. :)

46.religious?
- yes, please:)

47.alaskador?
- ok lang.

48.computer games geek? Or internet freak?
- not so much.

49.speaks 20 languages?
- why not? :)) if that's possible:D pero atleast 3:))

50. loyal o faithful?
- loyal and faithful!

***crossroads na tumutugtog:))

I LIKE TODAY:D

i like a lot of things today:) like:

1. My Fil 14 class! hmmmm:) sir ariel is just soooo hot!!! parang "sir!!! bading rin akoooo!!!" :)) super "haaaaay:x" as in guapo siya at maganda din! tapos antalino pa niya at magaling siya magturo!:) haaaay!!!!
2. Psych class... the brain is very powerful:) at kasi same shirt color kami ng crush ko at ng shoe bag!!!:) ang nice ng arms niya!:D
3. kim's cake from her roomie's debut:) sarap!
4. pizza!!!
5. cheeseburger from martha:) thank you martha! i love you!
6. BASKETBALL. infairness, fun basketball ngayon at hindi ko natanong na, "bakit nga ba tayo nagbasketball???" nanalo ang team ko!!! oh yeah! let's go, team!!!
7. HOUSE:D [mon, i think you know why:))]
8. yung tall guy... kaso i left before he came back:(
9. the other tall guy. haaaay:) he's older than me, i'm just smarter! hahaha. kiddin. sana maging close kami:D hahaha

those are the things that made this day "I LIKE" compared to the past days of this week. and tonight, we opened Litisang Bilog ng Caucasus! Oooh lala!!! I'm watching tomorrow:)

-----nothing profound. just plain happy thoughts:D

okay, nung weekend medyo napagalitan ako ng nanay ko kasi tinanong ko sa tito ko kung saan siya nagpalagay ng tatoo. tapos sabi niya sa kaibigan niya(maraming kaibigan ang tito ko na mga artist) mura lang daw. at tinanong sakin kung bakit. at dapat hindi ako naging honest, at sinabing gusto ng friend ko at hindi, "samahan mo ko. gusto ko magpalagay." so ayun, sinumbong ako sa nanay ko. parang batang nagsusumobong dahil inaway ko yung kalaro namin.

so yun, nanay ko pinagsabihan nanaman ako. at bad shot nanaman.

pero ngayon naisip ko na wala nanaman siyang magagawa kapag nagpalagay na ko ng permanent tatoo eh. kasi...

kanina nasa bahay ulit tito ko, tapos pinakita ko yung drinawing ko sa kamay ko. sabi ko, "tito oh, tingnan mo may tatoo na ko!" oo, alam ko para kong bata. tapos kahit alam niya na drinawing ko lang yun sinabi pa rin niya sa nanay ko, ako naman nakiride:) at nasabi na lang ng nanay ko, "bahala na yan sa buhay niya." at proud pa ko at pinakita ko pa sa nanay ko yung "tatoo" ko. at naniwala kapatid ko. :))

sooo, siguro kung totoo na talaga yun as in totoong totoo, ang masasabi na lang ng nanay ko, "bahala ka na nga sa buhay mo." at hindi na siya magagalit:D

dapat magc-comment ako sa mga hangman questions ng sci 10 teacher ko. pero nakalimutan ko na yung tanong niya na paulit-ulit at ang bull shit ng mga sagot(well, para sa akin).

so iba na lang ib-blog ko. namimiss ko ang mga UP friends ko. pero kasi tinatamad talaga ko bumisita, at madami din naman akong ginagawa kahit na mwf ay 1230-230 lang klase ko this week. but it's all good. fun naman:)

tapos yun... kanina medyo nagulat lang ako sa mga naalala ko while driving around places with my mom. hindi ko akalain na maiisip ko yun at mapapareminisce. weird lang. at siyempre ayoko bigyan ng dahilan o ng kahit anong ibig sabihin. kasi ayoko rin, so wag na lang.

naalala ko tuloy yung post ni jedyne. yung mas gusto yung hindi puwede at yung puwede at andiyan, hindi mo gusto. :)) ano ba ito??? pareparehas ba tayo ng sitwasyon ngayon??? omg! :)) kamusta naman??? pare-parehas pala nating gusto si hot psych guy! :)) na brinoadcast ni jedyne yung pangalan kaninang sci 10!:)) good job! we are so great!

so anyway, yun nga... wag na lang kasi ayoko rin naman. atsaka ngayon wala ng reading between the lines, minsan kasi nasosobrahan yung pagbabasa ko dahil sa aking obsessive-compulsive disorder. kaya take things as they are. kahit na minsan yung temptation to interpret ay sumisigaw ng "camon! may meaning yan na iba pa!" eh dedma lang. no thanks. tapos na ko sa ganyan. pero, natawa talaga ko sa namiss ko eh. :)) hay,buhay, don't play with me. i have been faithful to you. ikaw lang ang nagiisang buhay sa kin.

okay, that may not make sense, but for me it does. i have been very faithful to life:) kahit na gusto ko na iwan, di ko pa rin iniiwan:) i am very faithful:D

so yun. gusto ko lang masabi na may namiss ako na hindi ko ineexpect na mamiss ko. kasi kapag hindi ko nalabas, i might obsess over it at lumalala. kaya i'm letting it out. tapos, stop talking about it.

my goal now is to talk about my troubles/thoughts that are not so good or memories that i want to forget ONCE. and then STOP talking about it. kasi sabi nga ni papa ariel diccion[hot kasi siya:D] "If you stop talking about something, then it's existence stops." which is sooo true. ang mga bagay na hindi pinaguusapan ay onti-unting nakakalimutan, nawawala, at maaring hindi na nangyari kahit kailan. cool!

"can we just stop and talk a while?" "can we just talk a while and stop?" --tama ba?