Sunday, April 01, 2007 @4:55 PM
summer.
sun.
sand.
beach.
water.
fun.
all those fun summers are now just memories that i'll be wishing to relive. but to my dismay, i will be stuck at home, yet again.
like last saturday, instead of sitting in front of the computer, i should be in a party having fun, chilling and forgetting all about school. but no! i was stuck at home trying to be the good daughter that they want me to be. i didn't complain to them. and it was okay for me not to leave this freaking house and feel the sun and have fun with my friends.
and now, it was also okay for me to sit around waiting orders from my mom instead of partying with my friends at joel's place today. to think that i wanted that party to pull through for me to be able to unwind and yet, i am once again stuck at home.
it was okay because i had this family outing to look forward to. i was super excited yesterday because i am going to the beach! finally! until today. plans changed and we won't be going. and i had my mom breathing fire down my neck.
if this is how my summer vacation would be like, God! i can't wait for my freaking summer classes to start.
i am trying to be calm and composed. but it's getting harder by the minute thinking of all the shit i've been going through.
lately i've been snapping at everyone. i have no idea why. rich said it's because i have been super stressed and haven't really gotten a chance to unwind.
maybe that's it. but seeing that i have 10 more days of vacation and all plans are deleted, i won't be having any getaway and chance to unwind. so bear with me if i start bitching.
summer.
scorching sun.
burning concrete.
bitch.
faucet.
fuck.