Tuesday, January 31, 2006 @7:32 PM
hokie pokie. i am suppose to be doing my maths bonus thing but i just can't seem to answer it. i just wasted 2 hours of listening to music and reading quotes. and other messages. really funny. there's this message from him that was sent October 23, 2002 : icp q 2loy ex q.. lmo mnsan, iniicp q kng bt aq nkpgbreak sknya.. dmi qng ngastos, hnabol q xa 4 a long time pti crush q xa, pro aq mkkpgbreak?! TANGA KO!!
omg! it's just sooo funny. if he'd hear his self saying that now, he'll say "wtf?? did i really say that?" or i think that's what he'll say. haha.
it was also that same year when he would say "luv u" in different forms. which made me think, "if he says that before, what made me so sure that this time it's a different thing? different in a special kind of way??"
this is just pathetic. yeah. just plain pathetic.
oh well. i'm still hot. specially today. had our classpic and it's coolness. good thing i have make up with me everyday. and janica asked me to replace timo for the debate. OMG! debating is just not my thing yet. i can train for debate, but i am not yet ready to compete. it's too much too soon. i need lots of experience. and i totally los tmy confidence. sobra. my first ever debate with the debsoc sucked big time, and i just can't seem to redeem myself. screw it. besides, i have a lot to make up. i have to study all by myself for chem, maths and physics. hayy.. goodluck sakin! my groupmates for econ will be coming here tomorrow for us to do the ap thing. wish ko lang matapos ko siya. atleast now, i am occupied with schoolwork and i'm actually giving it some time. it's now just him and him. but now, i really want to talk to him. i want to borrow his geisha if he's done reading it. wish he'd call back. haayyy.. anyway, today is kinda cool i went to starbucks with kayla. i really miss her. we talked about things and told her how i feel and i just miss her company when i will not be judged of the things that come out of my mouth.
because she's simply your firend and she accepts you for who you are. tells you when you're going overboard. i am now having a head ache. meaning, no school tomorrow?
haayyy... i have to learn to stop running away from responsibilities. i wish God'll grant me responsibility. i really lack that trait. super!
he will not call. whatever. i'm tired of him!
"don't tell me you love me if it isn't really true, don't tell me you love me if you are not sure too. don't tell me you love me if you're just lying, you know it would hurt me and you know it would make me cry."