Sunday, August 21, 2005 @11:13 PM
it's already 2pm. still i am nowhere. gosh! i just need to find my focus. i haven't achieved anything. except change the layout of my blogs. goodness! no wonder why i'm failing. i just can't seem to see my motivation. it's like i'm going to school just for the sake of graduating. i don't feel any pressure. it's so ironic that i don't like being pressured, but i have to be pressured to do something. i am such a procrastinator! i remember the bec-1 days, 'cramming makes perfect'. we produce really good projects when we cram. it's not a good habit! but i just can't drop it. it's like smoking for chain smokers, liquor for alcoholics, drugs for drug addicts. haaay... good thing it's just me and our help at home. or else! my mom would be breathing down my neck, telling me that i have no priorities and i am so wasting time. and i would sit infront of the computer, pretending to do my homework. thinking of how i'll start my projects. i am so bad at starting stuff! it'll take me ages to start. but if i start something right away, count on me not to finish it. haaaay... what will happen to me? what will i make out of myself? i have dreams. i don't want to be a couch potato forever. someone who will forever be dependent to their parents. uh-uh! i don't want to be like that! yun lang... wag lang ako susumpungin ng katamaran!