Wednesday, August 24, 2005 @4:18 AM
today is the sabayang bigkas. a week and a half of practicing, sacrificing time, and putting effort in our 'craft'. a lot of things happened during the preparation. it caused a lot of tension within the class and with 'a few' teachers. it also helped us, in a way, na... bsta! ayun. nung practice maraming nagkainitan, nagkabadtripan, at nag open forum ang edison. iyakan to the max. eventually, naresolve din yung problem. kaya astig. oh well.. eto na, today is the day. nagre-ready na kami. practice. todo todo. nagho-hope kahit feeling naming lahat wala ng hope. sige pa rin. lakas ng fighting spirit! nagalit pa samin si ma'am. haaay. kasi biglaan yung test, yan tuloy, lang pumasok sa paper ko. pero may point din naman si ma'am. kilala na namin siya. she always makes a point. at talga namang pinaninindigan niya. kaya naiintindihan ko siya. nagulat lang talaga ko kanina. hindi naman kasi masama ang tingin ko sakanya... ganun lang talaga mata ko kanina. smaller than usual dahil sa ilang kadahilanan. at maliwanag sa pinagkakaupuan niya, tiyempong pagtingin ko eh napa-squint yung mata ko. nagmukha tuloy na masama yung tingin ko. sorry nalang kung ganun yung labas. di ko sinasadya na mabastos si ma'am. oh anyway, back to my kuwento. yun nga nagka badtripan pa ng onti dahil sa 10 minute break eh tumagal ng 30 minutes. at ako ay gumawa ng project ko sa theater, at naka balik na ko ng classroom ng 12:30... 1 hour late. pero okay lang. di naman sila nagalit. ayon, nagcostume na kami. naghenna sa kamay ng 'tribal' kuno ni airon. sige ayos lang... medyo kinakabahan na. bumaba na rin kami sa covered court. una ang bec 4. todo karir talga. astig sila... pero medyo expected na sakanila yun. kinilabutan ng aako sa kant ani pebbles eh. sumunod ay fleming. siyempre, cheer! at todo support sa kanila. may mga ka-cheeky eh. at ka-floor! napaiyak talga ko sa last part nila. yung mga 'sabi nila, di daw namin kaya' chuvaness. tpos einstein naman. syempre cheer din. ka-floor at astig sial. yeye kasi eh. sabi nga nila dugo't pawis niya yung presentation. sumunod ay ang avo. oh well, parang bec, expected na. tpos curie. ang astig ng bestfriend ko! wahaha. yun lang. tlgang nawalan na kami ng pag-asa. dahil medyo madaming similarities yung presentation namin sa kanila. pilit nalang naming pinatibay ang luob, at pinaniniwala ang mga sarili na may hope pa kami. tpos ayun, darwin na. super tense. dasal, dasal daw. kaso, sabi ni jed, hingi tayo ng hingi ng tulong sa Diyos, eh di naman tayo nagp-practice. onga naman. sabi nga, 'nasa Diyos ang awa nasa tao ang gawa'. bahala na. tpos na ang darwin. kahit ano na. basta gawin ang dapat gawin with all your best, okay na. ginawa naman namin. madami pa nga kaming mali. at ako! nakalimutan ko tanggalin ang blind fold ko!!! whooo! sa wakas. tapos na. onti onting naguwian na mga classmates ko. di na namin hinintay yung awarding. asa pa kami. pero hindi eh.. nanahimik kami sa mcdo(ako si nikki at si kayla), may mga classmates din kami, kaso siyempre sariling circle of friends. biglang sabi ni val, 'ui, 2nd place daw tayo'. parang kami 'ha?' 'weh, di nga?' at onti onti na naming nadigest. at... waaaaaaah!!!! 2nd place kami!! grabe! hanggang ngayon di pa rin ako makapaniwala. happy ako. kasi edison IV pumasok sa top 3. 3rd floor kami eh. bihira yun. eto lang yun, we represent 3rd floor. carol fest, sana edison einstein at fleming ang mag top 3. astig mga taga 3rd floor!!!! woohoo!!
mga tao, kaya natin to. let's just take it from the words of te fleming peeps!
bec I, sports fest sa sabado. kita-kits!!!
Sunday, August 21, 2005 @11:13 PM
it's already 2pm. still i am nowhere. gosh! i just need to find my focus. i haven't achieved anything. except change the layout of my blogs. goodness! no wonder why i'm failing. i just can't seem to see my motivation. it's like i'm going to school just for the sake of graduating. i don't feel any pressure. it's so ironic that i don't like being pressured, but i have to be pressured to do something. i am such a procrastinator! i remember the bec-1 days, 'cramming makes perfect'. we produce really good projects when we cram. it's not a good habit! but i just can't drop it. it's like smoking for chain smokers, liquor for alcoholics, drugs for drug addicts. haaay... good thing it's just me and our help at home. or else! my mom would be breathing down my neck, telling me that i have no priorities and i am so wasting time. and i would sit infront of the computer, pretending to do my homework. thinking of how i'll start my projects. i am so bad at starting stuff! it'll take me ages to start. but if i start something right away, count on me not to finish it. haaaay... what will happen to me? what will i make out of myself? i have dreams. i don't want to be a couch potato forever. someone who will forever be dependent to their parents. uh-uh! i don't want to be like that! yun lang... wag lang ako susumpungin ng katamaran!
@7:58 PM
it's a new blog. new posts. new stories. hopefully a new chapter of my life.